I lost my grandmother who is very very dear to me. It was very shocking. She was completely well and had nothing wrong with her, then she just died... I miss her so much everyday. It hasnt even been a week... but I still long to see her. I saw her a few days before she died and she was full of life and laughing... I just miss her. Please pray for me.

 

This really sums everything up...

 

Homesick by Mercy Me...


You're in a better place, I've heard a thousand times
And at least a thousand times I've rejoiced for you
But the reason why I'm broken, the reason why I cry
Is how long must I wait to be with you

I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now

Help me Lord cause I don't understand your ways
The reason why I wonder if I'll ever know
But, even if you showed me, the hurt would be the same
Cause I'm still here so far away from home

I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now

In Christ, there are no goodbye
And in Christ, there is no end
So I'll hold onto Jesus with all that I have
To see you again
To see you again

And I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
Won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
Won't you give me strength to make it through somehow

I've never been more homesick than now

ITS OFFICIAL LADIES AND GENTLEMEN... I WILL NO LONGER BE COURTNEY GRACELYN REGISTER COME SATURDAY AT 5:30!!... I WILL BE COURTNEY REGISTER BRYSON!!

YES, I AM GETTING MARRIED!! YAY!! I AM GETTING MARRIED TO THE LOVE OF MY LIFE... AARON SOLOMON BRYSON.

TO ALL OF YOU COMING, I LOVE YOU AND CANT WAIT TO SEE YOU, TO THOSE OF YOU WHO COULDNT BE THERE... I WILL MISS YOU!! :)

Its funny, if you look down at the entries... I was sitting back and waiting for me and Aaron to fail... now look at us!! :)

MY EX BOYFRIEND IS A FUCKING IDIOT.


You "claim" to be in love with me still, and write a NOVEL on livejournal about me... then... you claim you have "forgotten" me... makes TONS of sense. Good Job. I hope you do move on and leave me and aaron alone. Im happy. Deal with it.

FROM HERE ON OUT THIS JOURNAL WILL BE 100 PERCENT FRIENDS ONLY.

PLEASE COMMENT TO BE ADDED.

I WOULD USE ONE OF THOSE COMMENT TO BE ADDED BANNERS... BUT I AM TOO LAZY TO FIND ONE BUT I HAVENT FOUND ONE THAT I LIKE...

PLEASE LEAVE ME A COMMENT AND I WILL ADD YA UP!!

<3 me

Ok
So I have just purchased ANOTHER 12 months on this Livejournal thing. I have had a paid account since 04, so why not keep getting one... right??

So all of you in LJ land... make me post every day!! If not, I am not getting my paid account's money worth.

Do any of you know how to do a cute layout? If so... could you do one for me?! I will purchase like 6 months of extra user pics for you or something... I just want something really cute and pink... and girlie.. and I just want it to be really cute... if you make it for me... I wll do something ubber special for you!!

Ok... so now that thats said... love you all bunches,

I am kind of going through a funk right now, which really sucks... but oh well... I wil get out of it sooner or later I hope...

Ok... aside from all of the Virginia Tech stuff (I found my friend btw, he is safe.. thank goodness!!)
Today, I almost died.
Around... 9ish I decided to take a nap on my couch... well... the wind was terrible. For all of you in the durham/Raleigh area you know this.

Anyways... I layed down... and A TREE HIT MY HOUSE.

Guys... it destroyed everything. Its horrid. It hit everywhere around me where I was sleeping. The fire department was amazed that where I was sleeping is where th tree should have gone.. and it didnt... it went all around me and not the tree. They said that was physically impossible. They said I shouldnt have even been sitting there talking to them.

I got hit with some branches and parts of the ceiling. It hurt my head... but the fireman and EMS guy (the fireman was so damn hot) checked me out... and I was ok. He gave me a hug (the hot fireman) and said I would be ok. but still was amazed that everything was destroyed.

It also came within centemeters of a propane tank... another mystery as to why it didnt hit it.

The thing is, it should have been a lot worse than it was. I thank GOD that it wasnt.

My friend Cindy told me last night that it was the first night she prayed for me since my family has been in Italy. She told me she prayed for my safetly while my parents were away. I then told her about the Tree incident. Its amazing the power of PRAYER. The one night she prays for me, a miracle keeps me safe the next morning. Its amazing.

Other than that. I have had to go about getting the house/yard fixed on my own. The grill is flattened... all of our furniture.. everything... glass is everywhere. Parts of trees are in my house. I was so scared. I have been through hell and back today.

I dont really want to even think about what could have happened if it would have fallen on me. It flattened and ruined everything else it hit... and the SCREEN outside of where iw as laying is still up... its just amazing...

Then my grandma got here and didnt care about any of it. She even started a fight with me.
So much for having a grandmother that actually cares about your well being.

Anyways... contractors and estimaters will be here in the morning to help fix the house. The also need to see how much our insurance will cover. They say its up to 20 grand to fix right now.

I need sleep...

Pray for me you guys...

My friend isnt answering his phones.
He is missing at VA Tech.
I am really worried, I have tried calling all day and no answer.

I really hope he is ok...

Ok... so I have been thinking so much lately.
ALmost to the point were my head just completely aches.
There are so many things I want right now, that I just cant have. I am confused.. and alone...

I know I am moving soon, so I really shouldnt want anymore out of Raleigh... but yet I do... and I want so much for myself when I move... and I am so scared that if I dont get those things when I move that life will just be completely ruined.

I want to make things happpen that I cant. LIfe sucks that way sometimes. There is absolutly nothing that I can do about them too.

Ugh, Vegas is coming up this week. Charlie and Harrison and Billy and Cindy will be there, so thats always good. I am glad I will get to spend some time with them outside of work.

I was listening to music, and... this is seriously how I feel right now, even though I wish I could make things differend and make ME the one that makes him smile, and make MYSELF the one that he dreams about at night, but I cant and I know that. He likes this other girl, and I compltely hate her and I dont even know her. Pathetic, right??

I hope the days come easy and the moments pass slow
And each road takes you where you wanna go
And if you are faced with the choice and you have to choose
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you

And if one door opens to another door closed
Keep on walkin til you find the window
When its cold outside show the world the warmth of your smile
More than anything, More than anything

My wish
For you
Is that this life because all that you want it to
Your dreams stay big
Your worries stay small
You never need to carry more than you can hold
And while you're out there gettin where your gettin to
I hope you know somebody loves you
And wants the same things too
Yea, this is my wish... <33

Even though he hurts me, I want that for him... :(

Now, its off to wollow in self pity and cry... but I am doing better than usual... today is just a bad day...

Alas... Vegas in 8 days... ahoy!!

I am alive.
I will do a picture update tonigh!!

I miss your smile
I miss your eyes
I saw a picture of us today
And started to cry

I love the way you say my name
I dont know if ill ever feel the same
I wish I could bring you back to me
Somehow, if Icould make you see...

MEN ARE FUCKING ASS HOLES.

I SWEAR, SOME NEED TO JUST GET THE FUCK OVER THEMSELVES. THE WORLD DOES NOT OWE YOU JACK SHIT. GO JUMP OFF OF A BRIDGE AND DIE.

AND THE HURRICANES WIN GAME ONE!! JUST 3 MORE GUYS... 3 MORE!!

I got baptized tonight. Talking about an emotional experience.
I will write more later!! :)

Ok... so
Charlie+Suit=THE SEXIEST THING ALIVE.

That is all.

http://www.apple.com/trailers/paramount/wtc

Dont watch that if you cry easily... but its the new trailor for World Trade Center.
It looks amazing

This is all over.
I am dating other people
And GETTING OVER THIS BULLSHIT.

Do you know how badly I want that to be true??

Ok.
I may be going on tour with a very famous band for 3 weeks.
Not singing, just being like a Merch girl and what not.
I am so excited.
Heather is going to make sure I look rockstar.
LOL

Not to mention, the guy that I am like in love with... totally has been talking to me all cute lately.
Man, I wish this would work!! *crosses fingers*


&hearts;

OMG... UNCW TOTALLY WON THE CAA TOURNEY TONIGHT!! I AM SO FREAKIN EXCITED... WE ARE GOING TO THE BIG DANCE FOR THE FIRST TIME SINCE 2003!!!!!!

Wow, I so am lovin my seahawks right now!! ♥

Now,Duke just needs to win the ACC... and everything will be completely perfect!!

Today was actually fun... I went to work... the got off early...
Then, talked to Heather about meeting Danny and Josh...

Then, me and Josh went to the mall. It was so much fun hanging out with him... we hung out just like old times.
I bought some nail polish and that is it lol.

Anyways, I think I am heading to UNC on friday and then back to my house to drink... yea, I know. Its going to be a blast... ok, so I am going to bed... much love all of ya'll!!

UNCW IS SO F'N CLOSE TO THE BIG DANCE!! EEP!!

THIS GAME IS GOING TO GIVE ME A HEART ATTACK... GOD PLEASE LET US WIN. WE NEED THIS WIN. I WANT THIS WIN.